loving kindness vs subtle mind

How unfortunate!  I just can not quiet my mind enough to stay focused.  Lets start with my experience with the introduction mp3.  I  listened to this twice once while closing my eyes and then while reading it in the book on page 65.  I was able to comprehend the author better while reading along. The information stated is familiar to me.  I'm sure you have heard " you get what you give" or "good karma". Now, The disconnection occurred while I was trying to focus on someone that I love and turning the feelings I have for someone else and transform  these feeling s towards my self.  I also realized that it is completely normal for me to not be able to connect or become synchronized with this activity  because its states that a mental workout is something that has to be practiced daily. The key to a good mental workout is understanding what it is and why you are doing it.  That goes for most things in life especially in our educational pursuits. In the chapter, they mention the benefits are expanded consciousness and healing capacities.  Now, during the exercise at one point she cues the follower to take in the sickness of a loved one....I was not into that part at all.  I am a firm believer in the power of the tongue and mind.  Therefore, I would not want to speak anything over myself except health.  As far as how i can implement  the mental workouts I could do all before the internalizing anyone's sickness.  The exercise may become easier in time with repetition and understanding.

Reference:

Dacher, E.S. (2006).  Integral Health:  The Path to Human Flourishing.  Laguna Beach, CA:
     Basic Health Publications.